Yea-it has been quite a while since my last post. I need to get better at this blogging thing! The baby is doing great growing right along from what I can tell of my growing belly anyways. I am ready for this little guy (yes, still think it is a boy) to be here. I still feel like I am pretending this is all happening. The kids are coming in 4 weeks from tomorrow, the next day is the baby shower and we get our last ultrasound that week-WHEW! A lot has been going on here. I have been dealing with some family stuff that has me worried, sad and depressed-but I am trying as best as I can to cope and be OK for this little thing inside me. Alex worries about me because I am really upset and sad-A LOT. All I can do is try and deal with my worries and have faith that it will all be OK. I worry a great deal about people that I am close to, so it is not easy for me to just drop my feelings or worries.

We had a great weekend! We went "home" to Wintersville and spent the weekend with my Dad. Abbie had a fantastic time running the neighborhood and then she had to come back to the reality of "big city" life. Poor baby! We saw our friends Missy and Bill and their little man Billy. Missy and I have been friends since high school and amazingly our firendship is stronger and closer 11 years later. Alex and Billy just clicked the moment they met-no brainer there. We laugh with them and are able to talk about the reality of grown up life at the same time. It was awesome! We all wish we lived closer so we could do more together, but the reality is that we never will. It was great to spend the time with my Dad as well. He enjoys having us there-but needs to work on the sleeping options (hint hint Dad)!!!

I went to the cemetery and just sat and talked with my Grandma. It was so wonderful to just be there without anyone but myself to get my feelings out. I really miss having her here to talk to. She was my sounding board for so many things. I came to many realizations that day about myself and my thoughts about things. Much needed!!!

Alex is still great! I have no idea what I would ever do without him. He just helps everything make sense. I know that I still drive him crazy, but I also like to think that he would not have it any other way. He is my world-just the way that I always wanted my marriage to be. He is more perfect for me that toast is for jelly and sauerkraut is for mashed potatoes.

Well-I am off. I need to see my doggie and love on her as she is still sad from being inside all the time now. We tell her that someday soon we will have a back yard just for her!