All over the place

That is the way that I feel right now. I feel as if I am going to lose it at any given point. I feel like I am destined to burst or something of the sort. Have I taken on too much? Gosh how I feel that right now. I don't want to feel this way but I cannot shake the feeling. I am behind at school and that has me terrified. I have to pass each of these classes so that I can move onto the next class and if I miss one grade then I will not be able to apply to the nursing program next January. I worry-too much-I know that. I am scared and I don't like to feel that way. I need to find a way to be able to ask for help with the boys, I need to be able to let the laundry go and the pile of crap on the island...but that is hard for me. I want to be great at home and that to me means more than just loving my husband and kids. I of course know that perfection is out of the question, but I want the house clean and stuff picked up. I want laundry done, folded and put away. I want to be able to cook dinner and get the dishes cleaned and put away. I want to organize things so that life if easier on all of us. I want to be able to spend 2 hours each day on school. I want to be able to live on less sleep. I want to be able to do it all and yes I know that statement alone is stupid. Surely this is the right path...this is my call-right? I think so and at times I know so, but I want to feel that all the time. I want to give into my Faith and let God take over my heart, soul and life. I want to just give it all so that deep inside I never doubt. How do I do that? Lord help me to get where you want me to be, to be who you want me to be...